I remember clearly too the first letter I wrote to somebody I don’t know. It was the letter to my child, the one I was to abort. I wrote it the morning before I went to see the doctor. It was short but I hoped he/she understands.
Mummy loves you but right now mummy cant keep you. I know it’s hard but I need you to understand. Grandpa won’t understand and grandma would blow a fuse. Mummy would have to drop out of school and work as a sales girl. It would be so bad cos mummy doesn’t know daddy and you will be deprived of all the good things. Please know that I love you.
I was at the address, clutching the
N5000 in my hand and looking like a person just sentenced to death. Doctor Steve(as I latter found out was his name) opened the door and gave me the usual silent treatment. I swore in my mind never ever to have sex again till I’m married. Dear God, please, just don’t let me die.
"I saw the way that doctor looked at you yesterday, is he you boyfriend?" he said as he turned to face me when I closed the door behind me
The alcohol smell hit my nose and I tried hard to keep a straight face.
"No, I don’t know him"
He nodded and started bringing out the things he needed. I sat down at the couch nearest to me
"You are a very beautiful girl, no wonder you are pregnant"
I cringed and swore again not to have sex.
He came close to me and I could feel his alcoholic breath on my face.
"Where’s the money?"
I quickly stretched out my hand with the money in it. He took it, starred at it for a while and tossed it on the center table
"I could do it for free you know, just let me play with you a little"
I started shaking my head, saying no, I was imagining another pregnancy on the one before.
"I’ll get pregnant again"
He laughed, a mocking laugh
"No, I’ll take care of all that....." he started grinning as he grabbed my breasts and started pulling me close.
I struggled to get away but he was stronger than me, I kept struggling and kicking with my little strength. After what seemed like 10 minutes, he overpowered me and stripped my clothes and just as he was about to strip my panties the door bell rang. He left me to open the door
I grabbed my clothes .......and my money as I ran out, speeding past the guest. I stopped running when I put as much space between me and the house as possible. I was sucking in air rapidly when an elderly woman grabbed my hand and pulled me aside......
"Don’t you have a mother?"
I looked at my stomach to see if it was so obvious I was pregnant. I looked at her again, a confused expression on my face
"Go attend to your flows daughter" She said and gave me a disapproving look
I looked down and saw bright red blood flowing down my legs. I sat down on the road and started laughing